so come on, steal me

So we did it! We got married. Despite the 40 degree weather, it was an absolutely perfect day, with all of our friends and family present. I don't think we could have asked for anything more. Surprisingly my favorite part of the whole day was the ceremony which is what I was most nervous for. It was personal, and it felt like we were the only one's up there. I remember it all, the whole day, every minute of it. It wasn't a blur, it was full of friends and family, and although I know we didn't get to spend nearly enough time with each and every one of them.....it makes me smile to realize they got to spend that time with each other. We had guests travel from Montana, Washington, North Carolina, Colorado, and many other places-and I hope they all know how much it meant to us for them to all be there!

The week after the wedding I took vacation. Heath was off until Thursday, and we were reminded of why we got married. We had a blast spending time together, filling our days with mini road trips, cooking, and just being care free and happy. It was the first time in a while that neither of us had to worry about work or school, and it was nice to be reminded of how that felt. Next up on the agenda? Get back to that more often, find a job that doesn't come home with me. I know that the possibility of me finding 'that' job, the job that makes you smile and feel like you're doing good is small, but I want to find one that makes me want to do that good when I get home. The one that doesn't fill me with dread to go to.

i'm loving you for all the right reasons.

Lets ignore the fact that I haven't blogged in 6 months. I'll use the "I've been busy planning a wedding" excuse, although that's not true, I've just been a little too jumbled to write anything.

Life has been crazy, we got our marriage license today (crazy!), which I thought would be no big deal, and not seem like any sort of milestone, but responding to the question "what last name will you be using after marriage" was pretty big, and something I'm pretty excited about. I can't wait to be officially a family, Jack will now have one last name (he's feeling much more settled now) :-), and Heath and I will finally be able to do things as a family. Simple things like pick up each others mail, prescriptions, etc. We'll both finally have health insurance! The wedding is just the icing on the cake, a time for us to be with family and friends, but I can't wait until the dust settles, and we're just back to being us.

The wedding planning has been awesome, I think we've really got a great day planned. The ceremony will be very us, a little camp mixed in to a traditional wedding ceremony. I can't wait for people to experience camp, I hope everyone sees why we love it there so much! The reception will be great, I have no doubt that our friends and family will make it that way. I can't wait for it to be here, for all the planning to come together and to see our closest friends and family celebrate.

Work has been stressful, and I'm constantly searching for my little slice of happiness. It's out there somewhere, and I'm lucky to have someone in my life that supports me and my search. I am more stressed about work than I am the wedding-and there's something wrong with that. I know that there's more out there for me.....we'll just have to see what that is!

week 2

So week 1 was successful, I've been trying to run semi-regularly, which is better than the never running that I was doing before. I'm also learning to not feel guilty when I don't go, which is hard...but I'm working on it. Something is better than nothing, right?

Week 2: Now it's time for something good for the earth. I WILL remember those pesky reusable shopping bags. We have so many of them, and I somehow never remember to grab them on the way out the door. Heath also brought up the point that they can be used at stores like Target and the mall. Our goal for the next coming months is to open the cabinets under the sink where we store the plastic bags for future Jack litter box cleanings, and be forced to leave the reusable bags behind so that we can collect more Jack bags!!! It will be quite a challenge since the cabinet is full, but I have faith.

a leaner greener me.

So lately I've been in a life rut. My daily routine hasn't changed in months, I've been working my tail off, and I need something new in life. Every day I get up, go to work, come home 10ish hours later, and sit on the couch to watch tv until it's bedtime. Then I repeat daily. Recently while at a closing Borders, I picked up a book called "Sleeping Naked is Green" by Vanessa Farquharson which has inspired me a bit. I haven't finished the book yet, but so far I'm really enjoying it. It chronicles a year in the life of the author, who decided to challenge herself to make one 'green' life change each day for a year no matter how small. Some days she learns to accept that she's not perfect, and knows that the switch to recycled paper towels makes a difference, even though not as big of a difference as not using paper towels at all. I think I'm enjoying it so much because it focuses more on the possible, and not being perfect, just aware. This has inspired me to do something similar. Each week I will challenge myself to make a greener, or healthier life change and blog about it. We'll see how long it lasts, but it should be fun!

Week 1: Work has been stressful, it's been playing on my biggest insecurities and causing a great amount of anxiety. It's a terrible feeling to have constant anxiety about things I know are silly, but can't help. For both my mind and my body, I have decided to make a conscious effort to go out for a jog when I'm stressed, instead of picking up the pint of ice cream or bag of chips. I've been doing this for about a two weeks now, and so far so good. Now to figure out how to de-stress and not worry so much! I'm trying to figure out what I'm passionate about, what will make the stress worth it.